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this will be fairly short and sweet. i am home from my followup appointment after 5 weeks to see how i would react to changing my anxiety medication. having lost 11 lbs i am off to a great start but i told the doctor i am not ready to celebrate as i have more than 100 lbs to go and i have gained and lost 11 lbs many many many times. she did ask me about my level of interest in trying Topamax for weight loss and i said i would be happy to try it. she said she has seen patients steadily lose unwanted pounds when they take on just before a meal. it makes you feel full faster and not want to go back for more food. she said it makes carbonated beverages taste bad and it might make you feel absent-minded like a poor short term memory but that goes away the longer that you take it. i meet with a dietician/nutritionist for the second time this wednesday morning and then i meet with a psychologist for the first time next monday. maybe we will get the root of my emotional eating issues or find

I have a few things to say. i want to preserve them for me so i don't forget them but i want to share them with you as they could have a profound effect. first i just read this statistic in a book (copyright 2014) i am studying for a class: 96% of U.S. Senators are white, 90% of governors are white, and 89% of all judges in America are white. just let that roll around in your head. it really has no correlation with the bulk of this diatribe. second it is Sunday and i have got share the gist of today's sermon. i just can't stop thinking about it. We had a guest pastor which i think most people would be annoyed by. you get used to a preacher and then he takes a Sunday off. he only has to work one day a week! i am only joking. Maybe you came just to hear this man speak and he is out of town. But I walk into church every Sunday not knowing exactly why i came. when i leave then i understand. This guest pastor is a white man who appears to be about 60 years old give or take a

greetings, the good news is I lost another 4 lbs. and that is a grand total of 9 lbs. in 22 days since I have been on this new medication. Zoloft has given me very few noticeable side effects. I have only dabbled with drinking alcohol on it. a couple beers with a meal. I just want to get this level of the drug up to a constant in my bloodstream. I just don't want it to affect  my sleep. The only thing I have felt is very hot for no reason just for a few minutes, and once or twice I was really crabby at work late in the day but that also passed. I go back to the weight management doctor in about 2 weeks. I will soon begin the therapy and counseling component of the treatment where we begin to unravel all my unhealthy food related habits. "The Clean Plate Club" or using food as rewards and self sabotage are some of the things I hope to discuss. I had blood drawn a few days and ago the doctor has reviewed the results and commented that I am "PRE-PRE Diabetic". we